Mar
27
2010
My Apology to Everyone
By Stephanie Wei under General

Good morning and thank you for joining me. Many of you reading this blog are my friends. Many of you know me via the Internet, some in real life. Many of you have cheered for me or you’ve worked with me or you’ve supported me since I embarked on my blogging journey. Now every one of you has good reason to be critical of me for failing to announce the one-year anniversary of Wei Under Par in a timely fashion. I have committed a transgression. This is no one else’s fault but my own. I blame nobody but myself.

I want to say to each of you, simply and directly, I am deeply sorry for the irresponsible and selfish behavior I engaged in. I felt that I had worked hard for an entire year and deserved to enjoy posting about other, more important news. I felt I was entitled to post whenever I wanted. Thanks to the lack of money and fame and the abundance of Tiger-related crap, I didn’t have to go far to find distractions.

I am also aware of the pain my behavior has caused the people reading when I didn’t post that my blog turned one year old on Tuesday. A lot of you were probably paying attention and wondering why I would neglect writing such an important post. To everyone involved in Wei Under Par — my readers, mentors, family and friends — our work here now is more important than ever. One year and four days ago, I envisioned helping golf fans by providing them with a more irreverent, entertaining outlet to read about golf news. This goal remains unchanged and hopefully will continue to grow. For the people whose lives I have not changed, I am dedicated to making a difference.

Finally, there are many people reading this blog and there are many people that aren’t who believed in me. Today, I want to ask for your help. I ask you to find room in your heart to one day believe in me again. And keep telling your friends and colleagues to read the blog. Oh, encouraging your bosses to give me a full-time job or more freelance opportunities would be much appreciated, too. Thank you. And a special thank you to Alan Shipnuck for writing his genius mailbag column, which gave me the strength and inspiration to write this heartfelt “apology.”

/wiping away tears

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Phew, now that’s out of the way. Moving on. As you’ve probably gathered, Wei Under Par turned a year old on Tuesday, March 23rd. (Growing up so fast!) I know, I can’t believe it either. Pardon me while I get sappy for a moment. Many have asked what the hell drove me to start the blog and to pursue a career in the golf media. I figure now is as good a time as ever to answer those oh-so-pressing questions.

When I graduated from college almost five years ago, I was on a path, the corporate one. At that point, I thought I would have graduated from law school and well on my way to becoming a powerful attorney by now. Boy, could I have been more wrong (and naive, clearly). Funny how things never turn out the way you figure. Then there was my stint in finance. I walked away from the six-figure-a-year pay to pursue more creative endeavors (how cliche, I know). Though it was empowering, it was scarier. From there, I dabbled in fashion, PR, nonprofits and contributing to Guest of a Guest. It’s been interesting, thought-provoking and character-building, but also very difficult to sit with, especially for someone like me who always needs to have the answers immediately.

Two summers ago I was playing golf at Hudson National when I had some sort of an epiphany — I realized golf was my first and true passion and I wanted to work in the industry, particularly the media. But I had no idea how to get started. I tried looking for jobs, but the second half of 2008 wasn’t exactly the best time for that. You know, something with an economic downturn. One of my best friends, Rachelle Hruska (pictured above), who founded the popular website Guest of a Guest, basically convinced me to start blogging for her that summer. (If you don’t know her, she’s very persuasive.)

Over a few glasses of wine one night or perhaps it was after some drinks at Twestival with Rachelle and our other best pal, Ashley Simko, in early 2009, I (despite what Rachelle claims) came up with the idea to pen a golf blog. I mean, how many young females voices are there in the golfing world? Very few. Perhaps there was a niche I could fill. Regardless, I didn’t have much to lose. I could at least point people to my blog and show that I understood the game. So, thank you, Rachelle and Simko, for pushing me to kick off this little project.

Looking back — again apologies for the sap — the work I’ve dedicated to the blog and the opportunities I’ve received have made the past year (and four days) an incredibly rewarding and educational experience. But damn, it’s also been exasperating and difficult. As satisfying as the triumphs have been, the disappointments, the rejection and the uncertainty haven’t been easy to stomach at times. But hey, no one said this was going to be easy. It’s freaking hard. No shit, right? That said, I’ve never been more excited not knowing what comes next (okay, maybe that’s a little bit of a lie; still working on that whole patience thing). Nor have I ever been happier with the journey I’ve chosen.

Time for the obligatory (but sincere) thank yous! Thank you to those who were there for me when I doubted myself and wanted to throw my computer at the wall. Thank you to my readers for reading and commenting. Thank you to my fellow golf bloggers and writers for the support and conversation (and the links!). Thank you to my mentors who have imparted me with indelible advice for the encouragement and wisdom. Thank you to my friends and family for the tough love and putting up with me.

Okay, enough. I’m feeling nauseous. Sincere apologies if I entered Reilly-ville and made anyone puke. Here’s to another year of lessons (read: failures) and victories. Hooray.