In case you were too immersed with watching Jim Furyk win the Transitions Championship, here’s Tom Rinaldi’s interview with Tiger on ESPN:
I thought he did a great job (especially given the time restrictions), asking pointed questions even though Tiger responded several times with “that’s a private matter.” More of my thoughts later, though. And here’s the transcript:
Rinaldi: What’s the difference between the man who left Augusta national a year ago and the one who is about to return?
Woods: A lot has transpired in my life. A lot of ugly things have happened. Things that…..I’ve done some pretty bad things in my life. And uh, all came to a head. But now, after treatment, going for inpatient treatment for 45 days and more outpatient treatment, I’m getting back to my old roots.
Rinaldi: For a lot of people, the spark of those bad things is Nov. 27. Early that day, what happened?
Woods: Well, it’s all in the police report. Beyond that, everything’s between Elin and myself and that’s private.
Rinaldi: Why did you lose control of the car?
Woods: As I said … that’s between Elin and myself.
Rinaldi: If it’s a private matter, why issue a public apology?
Woods: Well, I owe a lot of people an apology. I hurt a lot of people. Not just my wife. My friends, my colleagues, the public, kids who looked up to me. There were a lot of people that thought I was a different person and my actions were not according to that. That’s why I had to apologize. I was so sorry for what I had done.
Rinaldi: You’ve said you’ve made transgressions. How would you, in your own words, describe the depth of your infidelity?
Woods: Well, just one is, is enough. And obviously that wasn’t the case, and I’ve made my mistakes. And as I’ve said, I’ve hurt so many people, and so many people I have to make an amends to, and that’s living a life of amends.
Rinaldi: You said you were in treatment. The simple question is, for what?
Woods: That’s a private matter as well. But I can tell you what, it was tough, it was really tough to look at yourself in a light that you never want to look at yourself, that’s pretty brutal.
Rinaldi: What’d you see?
Woods: I saw a person that I never thought I would ever become.
Rinaldi: Who was that?
Woods: Well, I had gotten away from my core values as I said earlier. I’d gotten away from my Buddhism. And I quit meditating. I quit doing all the things that my mom and dad had taught me. And as I said earlier in my statement, I felt entitled, and that is not how I was raised.
Rinaldi: Why not seek treatment before all of this came out?
Woods: Well, I didn’t know I was that bad. I didn’t know that I was that bad.
Rinaldi: How did you learn that? How did you learn it?
Woods: Stripping away denial, rationalization. You strip all that away and you find the truth.
Rinaldi: How do you reconcile your behavior with your view of marriage?
Woods: That’s living a life of amends and that’s just working at it each and every day.
Rinaldi: Given all that’s happened, what’s your measure of success at Augusta?
Woods: Well, playing is one thing. I’m excited to get back and play. I’m excited to get to see the guys again. I really miss a lot of my friends out there. I miss competing. But still, I still have a lot more treatment to do, and just because I’m playing, doesn’t mean I’m gonna stop going to treatment.
Rinaldi: What reception are you expecting from fans?
Woods: I don’t know. I don’t know. I’m a little nervous about that to be honest with you.
Rinaldi: How much do you care?
Woods: It would be nice to hear a couple claps here and there. But also hope they clap for birdies, too.
Rinaldi: Eleven months ago, here at Isleworth, I asked you, ‘How well does the world know you?’ What’s your answer to that now?
Woods: A lot better now. I was living a life of a lie. I really was. And I was doing a lot of things, like I said, that hurt a lot of people. And stripping away denial and rationalization you start coming to the truth of who you really are and that can be very ugly. But then again, when you face it and you start conquering it and you start living up to it. The strength that I feel now, I’ve never felt that type of strength.
Rinaldi: In the last four months, Tiger, what’s been the low point?
Woods: I’ve had a lot of low points. Just when I didn’t think it could get any lower, it got lower.
Rinaldi: An example?
Woods: When I was in treatment, out of treatment, before I went in, there were so many different low points. People I had to talk and face like my wife, like my mom.
Rinaldi: What was that moment like, either one?
Woods: They both have been brutal. They’ve both been very tough. Because I hurt them the most. Those are the two people in my life who I’m closest to and to say the things that I’ve done, truthfully to them, is … honestly … was … very painful.
Rinaldi: What was your wife’s reaction when you sat down and had that first conversation?
Woods: She was hurt, she was hurt. Very hurt. Shocked. Angry. And, you know, she had every right to be and I’m as disappointed as everyone else in my own behavior because I can’t believe I actually did that to the people I loved.
Rinaldi: I ask this question respectfully, but of course at a distance from your family life. When you look at it now, why did you get married?
Woods: Why? Because I loved her. I loved Elin with everything I have. And that’s something that makes me feel even worse, that I did this to someone I loved that much.
Rinaldi: How do you reconcile what you’ve done with that love?
Woods: We work at it.
Now, here’s the link video (thanks to Jay Busbee at Devil Ball Golf) to Kelly Tilghman’s exclusive with Tiger on the Golf Channel, which, as expected, wasn’t as impressive as Rinaldi’s. But she did very well. Oh, my favorite line? Asked about the November 27 car accident, Tiger replied, “I wasn’t going very fast. But unfortunately I hit a few things.” The unintentional humor made me chuckle.
Here’s the transcript, too:
Kelly Tilghman: Tiger, you’ve been a master of control your entire life, how did things get so out of control?
Tiger Woods: Going against your core values, losing sight of it. I quit meditating, I quit being a Buddhist, and my life changed upside down. I felt entitled, which I had never felt before. Consequently, I hurt so many people by my own reckless attitude and behavior.
Kelly Tilghman: Were there moments you thought you should stop, but didn’t?
Tiger Woods: Yeah, I tried to stop and I couldn’t stop. It was just, it was horrific.
Kelly Tilghman: For a man who’s so disciplined physically and psychologically, why couldn’t you say no?
Tiger Woods: I don’t know, now I know. It’s part of what I learned in treatment, being there for 45 days you learn a lot. You strip away the denial, the rationalization and you come to the truth and the truth is very painful at times and to stare at yourself and look at the person you’ve become…you become disgusted.
Kelly Tilghman: The Masters is a demanding stage on its own, let alone for a return of this magnitude, how do you know you’re mentally prepared for this?
Tiger Woods: I’m excited to get back and play. I miss the game. I miss playing, I miss competing. I wasn’t ready to play in Tavistock or play in Bay Hill, I expressed that to Joe as well as Arnold. I want to play in these events but I just wasn’t ready. I started too late with my preparation. Hank and I are starting to work now and start to get it going.
Kelly Tilghman: How do you know you’ll be ready for the Masters?
Tiger Woods: I’m starting to get my feel back. I know how to play the golf course and that helps a lot, I just got to, play it.
Kelly Tilghman: How will your therapy affect your 2010 schedule? I’m assuming you’ll have more in-patient therapy ahead.
Tiger Woods: Yeah, I will have more treatment, more therapy sessions. As far as my schedule going forward, I don’t know what I’m going to do Kelly. Last year I didn’t know because of my knee it was still uncertain, and this year, with all the things that I’ve done I don’t know what I’ll be doing either. That to me is a little bit bothersome too in a sense that I don’t like not knowing what to do. But what I know I have to do is become a better person and that begins with going to more treatment.
Kelly Tilghman: You went from becoming recognized as the greatest golfer in the world to becoming a punch line. How did that make you feel?
Tiger Woods: It was hurtful, but then again you know what, I did it. I’m the one who did those things and looking back on it now with a more clear head, I get it. I can understand why people will say these things because you know what, it was disgusting behavior. As a person, it’s hard to believe that was me looking back on it now.
Kelly Tilghman: America was concerned when the world’s greatest golfer was lying on the ground with no shoes at 2:30 in the morning, bleeding, what happened that night?
Tiger Woods: It’s all in the police report, they investigated it and they have it on public record, there’s a lot of stuff between Elin and I that will remain private and that’s about it.
Kelly Tilghman: How did you crash the car?
Tiger Woods: I wasn’t going very fast, but unfortunately, I hit a few things.
Kelly Tilghman: It’s been reported that members of your team, your inner circle were involved in your misdoings, is it true?
Tiger Woods: That is not true, it was all me. I’m the one who did it, I’m the one who acted the way I acted, no one knew what was going on. I’m sure if more people would have known in my inner circle they would’ve, they would’ve stopped it…or tried to put a stop to it but I kept it all to myself.
Kelly Tilghman: What is the state of your marriage with Elin right now?
Tiger Woods: We’re working on it and it’s a process that will remain private between her and I.
Kelly Tilghman: If your father were here today and looked back on these last 4 months, what would he say to you?
Tiger Woods: He’d be very disappointed in me. We’d have numerous long talks. That’s one of the things I miss, I miss his guidance, wish I could have had his guidance through all this to have him help straighten me up, I know he would’ve done it.
Kelly Tilghman: What do you think he would say?
Tiger Woods: Can’t say it on air but he would’ve been very direct. Basically said, you need to get your life headed in the right direction again.
Kelly Tilghman: For the 12 year olds and the parents out there who looked at you as a role model, what do you have to say to them to make them believe in you again?
Tiger Woods: It’s going to be over time. It’s going to be my actions over time. I’m trying to become a better person each and every day. The proof in the pudding is over time and that’s what I’m trying to do. I will continue to do that.
Kelly Tilghman: How will you explain this to your children, one day when they’re old enough to understand?
Tiger Woods: I will have that sit down talk and it won’t be just one time, I know that. It will be numerous times and I take full ownership of it, I did it. No one else did, it was just me and that’s a responsibility that I will have. I will talk to my kids , for however long they want to talk about it. That is a conversation that will need to be had.
Kelly Tilghman: Based on all that has transpired, what do you want your legacy to be when all is said and done?
Tiger Woods: Just like I wanted before. I felt that golf was a vehicle for me to help a lot of people. My dad had always said something that I never really quite understood until these times. In order to help other people, you first have to learn how to help yourself. Going into a treatment center for 45 days I learned a lot. I learned how to help myself and that’s the way I can help others down the road.
Kelly Tilghman: I noticed you’re wearing a bracelet, can we see it?
Tiger Woods: Yeah.
Kelly Tilghman: What does it mean?
Tiger Woods: It’s Buddhist, it’s for protection and strength and I certainly need that.
Kelly Tilghman: When did you start wearing it?
Tiger Woods: Before I went into treatment.
Kelly Tilghman: Will you be wearing it during the Masters?
Tiger Woods: Absolutely.
Kelly Tilghman: For the rest of your life?
Tiger Woods: Absolutely.
Kelly Tilghman: Tiger, thank you.
Tiger Woods: Thanks Kel.